And then it clicked, why I’m so afraid….
What would happen if ….people actually loved my writing so much, they were waiting daily to see what I’d write next, they were waiting for more. They were waiting for MORE when I’d barely got into the rhythm of this blogging, writing from the heart thing…
What if I’m flooded with followers, likes, comments, of LOVE, appreciation, ahas?! What would happen if people were buying my designs before I even had figured out how I’ll produce my orders? Before I have my systems in place?
What happens if they want my designs faster than I can get them made?! What happens if I see people wearing my designs and taking their selfies in them?! What if my favourite celebrities, bloggers, people I admire approach ME because they love my designs.
What if so many talented people come to me to collaborate with me for free, that I have so many offers I don’t even know where to start?
What happens if I light not one not hundreds but THOUSANDS…MILLIONS of girls like me, who feel like me, who believe like me, who WANT to be be a part of my vision, who want to work with me…
What if all these people believed it was so important to get my help, my advice, my insight because they believed I could help them, I could make them feel better, I could say things that would make sense to them? That would shift them out of their rut? Inspire, motivate them?
What if they were dying to work with me, save up to work with me? Prepared to pay me more money than I’d ever earned in a month to work with me?
What if I could make a difference to the person that needs help in the same way I needed help MOST and in my darkest places?!
What would happen if I actually met the guy of my dreams, who was exactly as I dreamt, wanted, desired, and could give me everything I wanted and more?! What if I could feel so in love like nothing I’d ever experienced or known before? What if someone lit a fire so bright in my heart….What if I was inspired to give someone love like I’ve never given before?
What if I met someone who BLEW my mind, who made all the others sooo worthwhile for this now!
What if I could earn enough money to look after myself exactly as I desire, doing what I love, without burning myself out? Without ever having to worry, count my pennies, my minus bank account balances, or be so drowning in debt it scares me and keeps me awake at night?
What if I always have enough to do what I want, and more?! What if I could give tonnes of money to the people I love, to make a difference to the projects I care about around the world, to someone who was just like me and that money would have made a difference to me at some point in my life?
What if I could always feel pretty enough, good enough, glamorous enough, stylish enough? What if I could have all the glam shoes I wanted?! :p
What if I could have all the nicest friends I wanted in the world that were so on my wavelength, so fun, so kind, that just got me on every single level….that I could be myself around…
What if I could actually have the confidence to hold my self growth retreats idea in Bali – a mastermind intensive for girls like me who want to go deep to discover and get clear on their passions, dreams, desires, and how to achieve them, who want peace, mindfulness, to connect with themselves, who feel lit up, at one with the world, surrounded by a sense of paradise and escapism….what if people flew all over the world to join my retreats, and paid me $1000’s for this, and actually had so much fun, made life long soulmate friends, had one of the best experiences they’d ever experienced before and went home a new person ready to implement their dreams and ideas, and inspired a massive life transformation in them?!
What if I could spend my days designing fashion, creating, making, writing, helping, coaching people. What if my customers were so like me, they became life long friends and also lit me up and taught me so much?!
What if I actually created an online supportive community of 1000s of girls….all around the world that I loved to engage with daily.
What if….my words and what I wrote was well respected by online publications that I’d love to be featured in?
And then….I realised the what if’s scare me
That the what if I launch to no body, what if no one follows me, what if people think my work sucks, doesn’t scare me as much?! Is more BELIEVABLE!!
That the thing that scares me is of the amazingness that COULD happen if I rose up and actually did what I dreamed of.
I’m scared because it feels to good to be true, it feels less believable because its so far from my reality. It scares me because negative is easier to believe in…to PREPARE yourself for. Because I’m scared that even if ALL this happened, I won’t be able to deliver….again…continuously…forever…..they’ll catch me out! That I’m not good enough….
What if…..you actually truly believed the amazing things that you dreamed of, that they were POSSIBLE without a f$£@!% shred of a doubt! What if you PREPARED yourself for these AMAZING what ifs!! What if you prepared your life for this to happen?! That it was a DONE deal!
Yes you may say them, you think them, on some level you may even believe them….sort of…maybe
But I mean DEEPLY, FULLY believe in EVERY SINGLE CELL of your body!!
What if you got so clear on your amazing beliefs and wrote them out daily as your reality until they were second nature, until you had IMPRINTED them to your body, your mind, your SOUL?! Until you believed WITHOUT a SHRED OF DOUBT that it will happen…
Because it WOULD COME TRUE! IF you made them so DEEPLY ENTRENCHED IN YOUR SOUL!!
What are your amazing what ifs?!