There is this woman I know…
She worries and gets so paranoid about everything
she over analyses everything…..like literally everything
she plays smaller than the amazingness she knows she has
she allows herself to settle
she doesn’t keep her promises to herself
she doesn’t trust herself to make the right decisions
she is shy, too scared for people to see the real her because she’s worried they will hate her for who she really is!
she keeps thinking the worst is going to happen to her….she believes she’s doomed
she always thinks she’s putting people out when they’re being nice
she can’t share her deep feelings or worries with others truly but she listens to everyone else
she doesn’t think anyone would be interested in what she’s really thinking
she feels bad….guilty….self-conscious almost ashamed anytime someone compliments her
she wants to hide herself when she is looking good as if who is she….Uma to look good…
she speaks quietly….worried about anything she might say….worrying whether it is the right thing
she would rather others around her do the talking…be in the limelight because who is she?! why would anyone be interested in what she has to say?
she thinks people are laughing and judging her all the time
whenever something good happens….she waits expectantly for her world to come ‘crashing’ down because she doesn’t feel worthy….
she doesn’t own her beautiful body and this reflects in the way she holds herself and walks
she allows all her negative chatter to get the better of her emotions and bring her down
she is always saying to herself ugh what is wrong with you uma….
she gets embarrassed and self-conscious about everything
she doesn’t stick to her ideas & inspirations that she got so excited and passionate about because she tells herself that’s the most stupidest pile of rubbish idea i’ve ever heard….
she takes any amazing feedback she gets with a pinch of salt…
she doesn’t take herself seriously
she tells herself people won’t want to read anything she has to say
that they’ll get bored….they’ll ask what is she blabbing on about….they’ll roll their eyes….they’ll think she’s deluded
she says yes when she really wants to say no
she calls herself crazy and mental
she gets so uptight…and can’t surrender control
she can’t own her being a life coach because she feels like a fake….
she can’t own being a fashion designer because she doesn’t feel like a real fashion designer
she feels her being an entrepreneur is laughable so can’t call herself one!
she calls herself a narcissist/self-obsessed for taking selfies and wanting to post them…
she doesn’t think she’s pretty or beautiful enough….and if she is who is she to be?!
she can’t completely let go of her body and dance because she’s so self conscious of herself!
She easily believes others over herself
she doesn’t believe she can have the dream guy treat her exactly the way she dreams of
then there is this woman!
She loves glamorous things….she has her unique appreciation of style and glam things that really lights her up
She loves nothing more to be glammed up in amazingness and gorgeousness
She loves being of service to others and making people feel good….listening to people’s problems and trying to give them the best advice possible…who enjoys this and knows she’s good at this!
She see’s the love in everyone around her
She is positive, peaceful and calm, sweet and kind
She is wise, intuitive and understanding
She is passionate about personal development and is continually committed to constantly working on her self growth
She doesn’t want to settle for mediocre….for normal….for easy…
She is happiest lost in her journaling, reading, writing, designing, creating, quiet, alone
She always has a vision and a strong idea
She is always inspired and comes up with amazing ideas at the click of her finger
She is courageous and takes a massive chance…willing to take risks….to jump of a cliff, and walk away from everything that doesn’t feel quite right…..even if it means fucking everything up…starting from scratch again….and she finds it exhilarating and freeing having the freedom of knowing the world is really and truly her oyster she doesn’t HAVE to settle and confine and limit herself to anything!
She has a sense of humour and can laugh at herself….she wants to let her hair down and just have fun!
She finds her peace in spiritual and mindfulness
She loves sharing her soul in her writing
She acts like a diva (occasionally) because she knows exactly what she wants and she isn’t gonna stop til she gets it!
She easily and effortlessly magnetises amazing friends….soul sisters…a team into her life
She instantly creates great connections with everyone
She believes in the universe’s magic….blessings…miracles
She finds inner-gratitude, peace, bliss and happiness inside her
She loves coaching people and intuitively knows what to say, she gets amazing reviews
She has loads of amazing achievements
She knows all the answers….everything is already inside her
She feels like a beautiful woman
She knows she is an amazing woman
She knows she is a goddess inside and out
She is a powerful creator who CAN create exactly what she wants!
She loves to move and feel good in her body…and loves and appreciates everything about it
She has a message….she wants to inspire and empower other women to follow their dreams and believe in themselves…to make it her mission to inspire millions of young women who beat themselves up, who believe others over themselves…who are sensitive
this is the woman I love….the version of me I want to BE more, fully deeply entirely….the other woman is holding me back…she keeps me playing small….she makes me feel embarrassed….hide…she makes me paranoid…she makes me analyse and second guess everything. she tolerates the fearful wanderings of her mind. She makes me live in anxiety, worry and fear! She believes she isn’t good enough, in lack and scarcity….how she’s doomed to never get what she wants!
Who am I to allow this Uma to get the better of me?! she isn’t even Uma….she’s a mean girl!
Don’t let the mean girl inside you win! the true you the REAL you is the amazing you! Is your heart and soul! What do you need to do and be to be more you! Where do you need to make a promise…..a commitment to yourself?!
Cos as the new year is fast approaching I’m thinking more and more about how frustrated I am with where I am….where I’m letting myself down…where i’m playing smaller than I know I’m capable of…where I’m not going big where I have the potential to! where I’m not keeping my promises to my soul and how it kills me to acknowledge! where I haven’t achieved EVERYTHING i wanted to achieve!
But I’m also eternally grateful! of how much I turned my life around in less than a year! Because I still pinch myself daily when I’m reminded that I’m living my dreams in Bali….when I compare it to the depressingness I ALLOWED and believed in less than a year ago! I pinch myself daily at the magic I experience from the Universe, the true sense of gratitude, bliss and happiness I feel inside me when I step into the heart-centered Uma, when I believe in me, when I have faith in me and the universe and live and be from THAT perspective! Then life IS magical!
it amazes and surprises me everyday how you really and truly can have your dreams…magically easily and effortlessly! The universe will really shift and accommodate you to magically accelerate your dreams and desires…..AS SOON as you’re true to you! Following my intuition and deciding to book a one way ticket to Bali massively accelerated everything….but also because despite how I was feeling everyday I kept my commitment to me all year…to work on my mindset DAILY….to journal and break through my limiting beliefs DAILY….to work with life coaches….to surround myself with inspiring people who love and believe in me…to NEVER give up in ‘doing the work’ inside and out to get to a happier place….and most importantly….flicking the switch and deciding to believe and have faith in me.
Which I have to decide daily! To believe in the amazing Uma, the real Uma and be the person I am at the heart rather than tolerate what my mind makes me believe I am! Otherwise before I know it i’m off my pathway….
What is the stuff you hate about yourself…..who is the version of you you LOVE….who you know is amazing and great?! Who you want to be more of x a million? Who do you deep down KNOW you’re destined to be?!
I know how the new year reminds you of making change….a reminder of the frustration of where you aren’t where you want to be, how you make promises to yourself of how everything WILL be this new year how this is the year it will be different!
Which is why I’m holding a FREE live training in the new year on how to follow your dreams and create massive change in your life….to truly go after everything you dream of and how to believe and have faith in you! How to follow your heart the more powerful amazing version of you! So you experience the magic of being true to you! And how the universe literally shifts and accommodates around you as soon as you believe in you!! And lots about living location free in Bali! If you want in on this make sure you join my email list asap and get my free Unlock Your Dreams workbook in the meantime….details of how you can attend live/ get a replay will be coming soon to all on my list!