I was sitting outside having my coffee and journaling this morning when a HUGE beautiful butterfly came to me and flew around me for ages, I sat looking at it…reminded of how I had ASKED the universe yesterday to show me a butterfly as a sign for something I wasn’t sure about ….but I had already completely forgotten about it!!
This butterfly gave me the answer I wanted!! I had started feeling anxious and ungrounded about something….my fear voice kicking in telling me I wasn’t good enough, making me unsure whether I was sabotaging myself again…..whether this new thing in my life was in or out of alignment with me so I asked the universe to show me my sign (more specifically I asked for a butterfly because it has meaning to me!!) …..if this *thing* was on my right pathway and being true to me!
I released and shrugged it off thinking asking for a sign ‘won’t work’! Even though I have done this POWERFUL and magical simple thing of asking the universe for signs plenty of times but always forgetting how when you really ask from the heart, the universe always show you the answer because the answer is really in you….IF you’re ready to be aware of it!
Maybe you think I’m crazy! But living in Bali you experience and notice the synchronicities and coincidences that happen on this magical island more and more (the veil between you and instant manifestation feels a lot thinner and literally grabs me by surprise everytime how amazing the universe really is when you tune in and are being true to you more!)….it’s not just me, the people I hang around notice it too! How the universe really does have your back when you step up and are on YOUR pathway….when you’re being TRUE to your heart and believe in the REAL you (not the you you limit yourself to and settle being)! The universe literally shifts around you to accommodate you and protect you….the more you have faith in you by following your path and the things that are so deliciously right for you and your heart and soul! I could talk all day about this because I get more and more passionate the more magic I experience from the Universe on a daily basis!
…Do you ever feel torn between being clear on what is meant for you? What is right for you? Whether it’s meant to be, or whether you’re just sabotaging yourself….giving into fear? Do you question what your destiny is meant to be? Do you get scared of losing something you desire so badly because you don’t feel good enough for it? ….Have you ever asked the universe for a sign?
….Cos I wrote this a year ago when I was feeling really unsure and confused as to whether I should continue pursuing my fashion dreams and never give up or whether it wasn’t my destiny, I wasn’t good enough and the universe is pushing me to something else! At the time I asked the universe for a sign and quickly forgot about it….but this is the sign I received back!
Out of the blue that week a PR contact that I barely knew from New York got in touch saying she would be in London this week and it would be great to meet up! She wanted to take ME out for the Pret a Portea fashionista champagne afternoon tea at The Berkeley! I said yes! Even though my mind kept telling me things like I’m a not a REAL fashion designer why would she want to take me out for tea, I didn’t feel good enough to go for the tea, I didn’t feel special enough or like I deserved it and that she would be disappointed that I wasn’t this big amazing fashion designer! I thought I was going to have to ‘fake it’ with this fashion PR girl from New York! I was sitting in my bed in my pyjamas in Woolwich at the time….stressed out and working and feeling a million miles away from my Fashion Dream! I felt completely unglamorous and ‘not good enough’ to be taken out for tea! But I forced myself to get ready and put on a dress and some sparkly boots and put on a smile! Milissa was really sweet and we got along so well! We had tonnes to talk about! The mega bonus part was she wanted to talk about my designs and how she loved them and my branding, and asked when was I going to produce more. She couldn’t stop saying how lovely my designs were and how they spoke to her and she kept repeating “you HAVE to design a new collection, keep going!” And how excited she was to see what was next!
I literally couldn’t believe what I was hearing! I couldn’t have asked for a BIGGER more BEAUTIFUL sign!
I left the afternoon tea on cloud 9, so grateful for having the opportunity of the afternoon tea, and for how appreciative she was of my design work! To me it felt like the sign I was looking for that I’m doing the ‘right’ thing in continuing my fashion dream!!
But what this little experience also taught me is that deep down its not about your destiny, and what the universe decides for you. Deep down I was looking for comfort and re-assurance that I was good enough to continue, and I was truly destined for my dream in Fashion. Deep down I already knew I wanted that answer to be a huge yes – we can manifest what we want, and so when I asked for a sign, I was subconsciously looking for the yes sign that I wanted and I manifested and chose to notice that sign. If I deep down hadn’t of wanted to continue I would have noticed all the signs and excuses why following my fashion dream wasn’t right for me anymore…I may not have even shown up for afternoon tea! I should have recognized and respected the small quiet urge that was burning inside me for so long sooner; that simply I want to do Fashion and that I just have to continue to do it and make it happen! The fears, worries and doubts in myself are irrelevant. Instead of looking for something outside of me to approve and allow me to do the things I want to. I have to give myself the PERMISSION to allow myself FIRST by believing in me! Instead of looking for outside approval. Our destiny shouldn’t be buried so deep that we can’t even recognize what we want personally for ourself, that we put the control of whether we’re allowed to do what we want outside of ourself!
What signs have you asked and had from the universe to show you whether you are on the right path? What do you believe about your destiny? And what do you need to allow yourself today? What are you being indecisive about right now in your life and what do you need to do to take charge of and empower your destiny? Notice what you’re feeling rather than noticing your actual thoughts and questions about something….and simply respect what it is that you feel. The doubts, fears and illogical impossibility associated with what you want CAN be figured out if you fully recognize, respect and allow yourself to desire what you truly desire and be so true to you!