“When you wish upon a star, your dreams come true.” – Pinocchio
Hey I’m Uma!
I’m a fashion designer following my dreams living location-free in Bali & travelling the world!
My personal brand is inspired by my feminine, dreamy, and ethereal creative vision. I love creating intricate details and beautiful embellishments. My design background is in couture and evening-wear; I was particularly inspired from my experience working for Marchesa in NY and Sarah Baadarani in London. I love sourcing and designing beautiful unusual embellishments textiles and prints.
I started my own brand in 2014 with a Moroccan styled Presentation show at London Fashion Week where I collaborated with Moroccan interior brands, Michael John London, Jessica Nails and Anna Wintour’s make-up artist to produce the show! My designs have been worn by models & reality TV stars from TOWIE, MIC, Love Island, Miss GB etc
I love being creative and all things glamorous and want to reflect my dreamy creative vision into my own life, beliefs, and ways of doing things, and to inspire you to believe in you and your dreams!
I want to inspire the Dreamer in you to follow your DREAMS, through igniting your heart’s purpose and passion and developing an inner-connection to your soul to LOVE and BELIEVE in yourself …to live truly from your heart, to SHINE and strive to be the most POWERFUL evolved, STAR version of you! To aim for the STARS, because your dreams and desires so absolutely CAN come true….they are DESTINED to come true!! To believe in YOU & connect within to your true self because that is where the most MAGICAL POWERFUL you lies! The you who is so worthy, beautiful and infinitely good enough right now…
“If you can see yourself as an artist, and you can see that your life is your own creation, then why not create the most beautiful story for yourself?” Don Miguel Riuz
~ I love this view on life…. to use your creativity to artistically create your own pathway…. to use your creative imagination to craft out the possibilities, the details of your dream vision, as a creator and dreamer to not feel bound by expectations, ‘normalities’, or limiting beliefs because you realize that
YOU are the creator of your own dream, You are the artist of your destiny, and You are the designer of your life!
After 8 years following my childhood dreams to be a fashion designer….working for my dream designers, starting my own brand, and manifesting amazing celeb and press opportunities, I started to listen to how I was feeling, how *dead* my soul felt inside, how I was literally riding this constant wave of intense fear, self-doubt and unworthiness.
I felt this deep unhappiness and purposelessness, I didn’t feel true to myself…how this just couldn’t be it….that my fashion dreams didn’t feel like a dream…! I never felt good enough in my work and who I was! I felt like a fraud fashion designer waiting to be caught out(!!!) I felt like the industry was this popular ‘club’ that I would never feel like I ‘belonged’ to and I was always chasing this sense of ‘fitting in’! I was relentlessly pushing myself to please others, to prove me battling against my creativity, constantly questioning whether my work was good enough….basing all my self worth on others’ opinions and criticisms, and no matter how hard I worked or how well things went it didn’t feel ‘right’…
like I was living the life I was meant to be,
that this couldn’t just be it,
This didn’t feel like I was living into my purpose and destiny,
that I was living to my fullest potential, that I was giving the world my truest ME!
I had this feeling deep inside that there was so much more I could be and do in a way that felt more alive and more me!
More TRUE, REAL, MEANINGFUL!
Even though I LOVE fashion and creating, and nothing excites me more than dressing up and looking glam! ….I wanted my life to have more meaning, to feel more purposeful, than just getting sucked into an industry that I felt wasn’t ethical in the way it worked and treated people….that the ruthless/craziness and treating people badly wasn’t worth it when no lives were being saved (!)….that it didn’t represent what I loved and believed about fashion. That there’s a lot of criticising for the sake of it, fitting in, pleasing the right people to open doors, its about what’s hot and what’s not….what’s in and what’s out….and doesn’t honor someone’s equally valid creative expression and being….cos no matter how ‘strong’ you are, when someone flippantly criticises your work it cuts your soul deep (!) and I believe your creativity is an expression of your heart and soul! It should be nurtured and treated delicately…designers should be encouraged to SPEAK and be more themselves through their designs, have a strong voice, a message to share with the world through the styles they create!
I didn’t believe in myself and was always listening to anyone and everyone’s advice…. I stopped listening to my intuition, I went against my flow and chose to trust and believe others over myself. I didn’t have the confidence to be me! So I hated the work I did produce, it never flowed because I was going against what I truly wanted to create, I wasn’t allowing my work to be exactly me, I adapted my ideas to what I thought people would like! When I look back some of the people I listened to hard didn’t even know what they were talking about, some were criticising for the sake of it, but most importantly I never even thought about selecting who to listen to i.e. whose vision was aligned with me, who I deeply respected what they had to say, because I didn’t believe in who I was.
I didn’t see the value of my vision within at all, that I just looked outside of me for answers, whether my designs were good enough, but really it all starts within. The only way you can succeed and feel ‘successful’ is if you create from within, you bring your uniqueness from your soul and you believe your within! Cos that is all you have and the only thing you can rely on! I’m realising I should have been making my fashion to please me, to express me, to make a statement of who I was, to create my whole business model in a way that was truly aligned to me, not following all the rules to fit in, to feel worthy to call myself a fashion designer! Not create stuff to lay my soul down and chase someone else’s approval…. for others. To see my work as an extension of my soul that you can either love or hate, to create designs that are good enough for me because they are created truly authentically to me!
I was just following all the rules, people pleasing, never believing in myself and who I was naturally, always believing I had to change who I was in all areas of my life, I *should* be more like this, I *should* be a loud confident person, I *shouldn’t* make my fashion brand appear too pink, I *shouldn’t* be so sensitive…I felt too scared to be myself, I felt like I had to hide who I really was! I found it hard to allow myself to naturally be myself around others and still do unless they’re super aligned with me!
I literally burnt myself out with exhaustion, and the anxiety and stress of always worrying what other people thought of me/not being able to be myself and living sooooo out of alignment with myself in all areas of my life! I got into massive debt launching my business at London Fashion Week and literally wanted to curl up in a ball and hide! Because the worst thing about the debt was I didn’t even feel proud, I just noticed EVERYTHING I hated about the way the show was run and my designs, and how I spent a lot of the money on things where I had listened to others and ignored all the niggling feelings when people told me ‘I HAD’ to do this or I should do it like that….rather than created it truly true to me!
It took over a year to get myself back up…I lost my sense of who I was and the SPARK within me that had once fuelled my AMBITION, PASSION and DRIVE! I literally wanted to forget fashion existed! I didn’t know what was right for me anymore. I was craving to CREATE, have purpose, make a difference, be bold, do something I LOVE, be more TRUE to me, be happier, create a life that was in alignment with me! I felt like I didn’t even know what I loved anymore….what would truly light me up, what I could give my ALL to! I didn’t know what I was passionate about, I didn’t even know if I wanted to pursue my fashion dream further….I felt like someone had stabbed me in the heart everytime I was asked about my fashion brand because I couldn’t bare to look at it or continue it because of how upset I felt with myself for battling against me!
I am super passionate about personal development and self-growth and became obsessed with working on myself to uncover my true heart’s purpose, and who I was on a soul level, and become more conscious of my limiting beliefs…..! When I started learning all about the power of thought and mindset, law of attraction and manifesting a few years ago, I fell in love with all the empowering concepts, that we were born here to be POWERFUL CREATORS! We create our reality, it is our divine RIGHT to desire and dream anything we want and to experience an infinite amount of HAPPINESS and LOVE…that we are so completely worthy and deserving of however much ABUNDANCE we want in life and that anything is totally possible and capable if we expanded ourselves to the infinite power equally inside all of us, that the only thing that is holding us back is the illusion of our minds! I learnt how my thoughts aren’t real, aren’t me, and come from a place of fear and ego. I studied A Course in Miracles principles…that the only real thing in this world is LOVE. There is NOTHING to fear! All the limiting and negative things I believed in and led my life by simply aren’t true!
I became more inspired to create my dreams and ideas in a way that was completely true to my heart, to believe in myself more and become more clear on who I was, my big picture vision and my true heart’s purpose! So that I could follow my dreams with confidence, faith and courage!
My vision is to combine my passion for personal development and fashion into my personal brand….I strongly believe fashion, style and looking and feeling good is all about creating and expressing your true essence and who you want to be, and this starts from the INSIDE OUT – developing a true sense of the inner-self and creating shifts in your mindset and inner world to reflect what it is you want to create is what will ultimately bring TRUE happiness on your outer world…!
I dream of helping and supporting you to truly believe in YOU…. to follow your heart….to believe in the pure 100% value, worth and STAR inside YOU and how completely utterly deserving, worthy and ENOUGH you are right NOW of all your dreams and desires.
I want to inspire the dreamer inside you to live your life with enormous Purpose, Passion and Flow,
The dreamer that desires to feel beautiful on the INSIDE and out, and strives to be the best YOU you can be, who loves and appreciates fashion, beauty, and glam things in this world but wants to feel more fulfilled, ALIVE and mindful – to feel an eternal sense of happiness and peace with your true self, no matter what happens in your outside world….
I want my life to be my own fairytale and vision of happy ever after, and make my wildest dreams come true, and I know you do too, your Dreams CAN come true!
…Being a dreamer is about having the faith, belief and courage to be who you know you already ARE, to be free to artistically express yourself and create a life from a place true to your heart, to be free to follow dreams and ideas and to create your own rules and destiny. It’s about being brave enough to act in spite of fear and self-doubt, embracing your struggles and not allowing failure to define you or make you believe you aren’t good enough or worthy enough!
If you battle with visualising how your dreams are even possible, let alone realistic, and even if they were you can’t believe that you could achieve them, if you are fighting against the expectations, rules, opinions and criticism of others and you just can’t move forward towards your dream life, I want to encourage you to believe in who you are and who you want to be, and love yourself wholly for your dreams, desires, and who you are, to move forward!
This is for the dreamers …
Because I know what it’s like to feel like you’re not destined for your dreams
To believe you’re the doomed black sheep
You’re not ever going to be truly happy….
To really not believe in yourself
To worry so much what others think about you
To constantly self doubt and question yourself
To question what is right or wrong to do or be…
To settle so much, because you don’t believe you can have what you really want
To think you have to be someone else
To worry what will happen if someone will get to know the true you….
That people will think you’re a bit crazy
To burn yourself out living to other people’s expectations, filtering yourself, working hard to please others, whilst really not believing in you, never believing you’re good enough, being driven hard by the impending fear, and doom you feel in your stomach!
To not believe you have what it takes…you’re not that ‘type’ of person….
That it’s not in your destiny
Your destiny somehow was to…have it hard….you came here to learn some ‘life lessons’
To feel small, insignificant and uninteresting
…You feel self-conscious
You hide, you feel uncomfortable with people noticing you
You don’t want to create too much noise
You don’t wanna step on any toes, you don’t want to piss anyone off, you want to please everybody!
You can’t bare for someone to judge you….think badly of you…see you as in the wrong!
You dream of being the Star of your own life, but at the same time you can’t bare for people to notice you! You’re too self conscious, you don’t feel deserving! You don’t relate to THAT star person who people notice, who shines…
But I believe in you and your dreams
I believe you’re sooooo interesting, you have a unique voice and vision
I believe underneath the self doubt lies heaps of power….strength and daringness, more than you know……
I love you for self-doubting yourself, for not believing in yourself
But it kills me what you’re missing out on, how you don’t realise how lovely, amazing and powerful you are, that I hate to see what you put yourself through as a result of not believing in you!
….I want to inspire you and show you the magic of living from your HEART, not your mind, by going within and connecting to who you truly are. That from this place there is NOTHING you need to worry about or fear or feel inadequate for.
The ONLY way to feel happy, content, have more PURPOSE, PASSION and HAPPINESS in our life is to go within and connect with our hearts and follow that! Only from that space can we create a life that is in true alignment to who we truly are! Because we are not our minds! Our mind is there purely to sabotage us, it limits, tricks us and holds us back, it tells us stuff like we’re not good enough, who am I to do that….it makes us believe in lack, fear, negativity, separateness….whereas your heart, the only real thing, and the real you is PURE, loving, POWERFUL, limitless, unique, full of so much worth and value NOW….it is the you that is SO worthy and good enough NOW, it is where the you that doesn’t need to get to *there* in life to be enough for what you want, you don’t need a certain life circumstance (e.g. to be glam enough, beautiful enough, have the best wardrobe, a rich bank balance, the perfect job, perfect boyfriend, perfect house) to be worthy, capable or deserving of absolutely anything you want!!! You already are right now exactly as you are!
I believe in grounding yourself daily by connecting with your heart, working on your mindset through journaling to keep you on your heart’s path and accelerate you to your dreams! I love journaling…..I write every day. I think journaling is the one most powerful way to work on your mindset and create your dreams. It is a way of focusing and consciously thinking….because your thoughts create your reality! You REALLY can write your desires into reality if you use the MAGIC of journaling DAILY. You can make sense of all those gazillion thoughts rushing around your mind that make you go a bit cray at times, and let control you…and have breakthroughs in beliefs that are holding you back, and find a better perspective to live by. It gets you grounded and back in your flow, and you can literally change your state of mind through the power of journaling! By bootcamping your mind and reaffirming the thoughts you do want to have!
…If you’re a dreamer you’re almost content with feeling discontented…..you’re so grateful but soooo frustrated at the same time….at how much MORE your life can be….you’ll NEVER be satisfied the way others expect you to be, you’re not the type to settle ever….there is always more to strive for!
Living a life where you constantly push yourself to keep moving….to grow to be the best you can be, is challenging and hard, change is hard, pushing yourself out of your boundaries and out of your current mindset is hard! I know what its like to feel powerless, to feel small, to feel like you have to follow the rules, to be scared you’re going to get ‘told off’, to worry constantly whether you’re doing the right thing, whether you’re perfect enough! And if you’re not, the self-punishing and critical self-talk you give yourself!
I want to inspire you and light you up if you like me are a dreamer and struggle with self-doubt, to not get sucked into it, to never believe others over yourself, to place your belief in yourself on others. To always trust and believe in the person you are exactly as you are, all of your needs and all of your feelings and be able to honour them and see them for exactly as they are…to not believe you shouldn’t be like this or like that, that you have to put on a facade because someone told you you can’t be like how you are.
I want to cheer you on and support you in your journey in who you are when you’re losing faith in yourself!
I want to share everything that helps me….I want to share my deepest darkest secrets and stories I keep to myself to make you feel better and normal!…because I know deep down you feel exactly the same as me! I want to show you dreams can come true! You can create your life and be who you want to, you’re entitled to feel unsatisfied because you know how much more PURPOSEFUL, happier and passionate your life could be and how much more you have to give to the world if you were living your dream life! You’re not unhumble and you do have it inside you to create and be something AMAZING in this world!
I know what it is like to get soooooo stuck in your thoughts, to keep yourself limited by your lack of belief in you and whats around you, I want to inspire you to constantly take LEAPS in your life….to go for the HELL YES’ and not settle for stuff that feels mediocre, and to really and truly dive deep and create every area of your life with the things that literally LIGHT your SOUL up!
I know what it is like to feel lonely, like no one gets you or really and truly has your back, to feel not worthy of being cared/loved….that no one can care or support you in the way you’d love…I have struggled with an emotionally abusive and narcissistic Dad all my life, where I was constantly being sucked into a black hole of manipulation, believing and fighting against his abuse and narcissism. I completely ‘lost’ myself inside because I didn’t have the strength and belief in me to not be swayed in believing him over myself and get triggered, I became sooo desperately unhappy….full of complete despair on who I was and what my life was meant to be about, feeling like I had no one to trust fully, to not know what to BELIEVE in anymore, to constantly question whether I was right or wrong in who I am! Which completely turned me upside down and inside out mentally and emotionally….I’ve hit rock bottom and felt like such a dark mess inside I so badly wanted to escape how I felt that I overdosed…to wake up and ultimately learn what was important to me, that you HAVE to believe in you! It is the only thing you have….why wouldn’t you believe in you, who your soul came here to be, why would you not have faith in that?!
….I am unapologetically determined to create a life of freedom and dreams that is completely and glamorously aligned to me…..following and being true to me! and inspire you too if you like me want the super glam life, whilst helping and inspiring millions of other women around the world to BELIEVE in their worth and value and dreams.
If you too are like me and a dreamer I want to share my journey in reaching for the stars, and I want to be a part of your dream journey too, and support you and be lit up by your courage, dreams and ideas!
There is no person you have to become, no rules you have to follow, no things you need to have, to thrive in this world, to have the love, passion and purpose you truly desire in this life, to feel worthy enough, to feel beautiful enough, to feel confident enough to express yourself through words, style, actions, exactly as your heart naturally wants to!
“To create the life of your dreams, the time has come for you to love You. Focus on Your joy. Do all the things that make You feel good. Love You, inside and out. Everything will change in your life, when you change the inside of you. Allow the Universe to give you every good thing you deserve, by being a magnet to them all. To be a magnet for every single thing you deserve, you must be a magnet of love.” – Rhonda Byrne
There will always be someone who tells you to be more realistic, “to get your head out of the clouds”, to “simplify your ideas”, that “life isn’t a fairy-tale”! I want to encourage you to Never stop dreaming; never be afraid to have ideas! Never stop being the creative you you are! I believe it is your duty to shine! Following your dreams is your life purpose, and it takes massive courage to get OVER yourself, to fully step into who you are! No matter your beliefs, ideas and deepest darkest desires they are uniquely you and there will never be anything like you in this world! So there is nothing noble or humble by conforming to other people’s beliefs and desires, not living your life to your wildest dreams no matter how outrageous, unbelievable, or against the grain they feel. You are depriving the world of you when you choose not to acknowledge your dreams fully, to shine and show the world who you really are!
You’re not too sensitive, ’soft’ or delicate/airy fairy for being a dreamer….I believe you’re stronger….in your vulnerability you’re so much stronger and braver inside than they could ever be, to even dare to dream! You have MORE than what it takes inside of you….more than they would!
“A desire is anything but frivolous. It is the interface between you and that which is greater than you. No desire is meaningless or inconsequential. If it pulls you, even a little bit, it will take everyone higher. Desire is where the Divine lives, inside the inspiration of your desire. Every desire is of profound importance with huge consequences, and deserves your attention” – Mama Gena
Only you get to decide how your life should be, how possible your dreams are and how to achieve them, and what your ‘upper limit’ to happiness, abundance and the amount of magic in your life is!
You can create and manifest a life you truly LOVE, that is in alignment with who you are, and follow your dreams and ideas from a place that’s true to your heart and soul….no matter what fears you have. When you connect with your inner self, and use your feelings, heart and soul to guide you to walk your path. I believe that’s the purpose of life to get fully into alignment with your heart and who you truly are, to become that person, to realise and experience your true worth, power and potential.
I want to inspire self-confidence to allow you to have crystal clear clarity on your vision, to take charge, and ultimately and firmly decide what you are striving for, and give yourself permission to make that leap to your dream life…. To be in charge of your destiny by defining, owning and creating it, and not letting life happen to you!
…To be able to have your dreams you first need to believe in them exactly as they are!
“As is your desire, so is your will. As is your will, so is your deed. As is your deed, so is your destiny.” – The Upanishads
Only when you act, love and be the true YOU, can you unlock your dreams and a life that means the world to you!
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